i don't really know how they are going to do right now. i've given it a lot of thought and usually i just give up on my team. these guys have been really bad losers lately. a lot of guys that just don't care about winning.
something just feels weird about this oakland raiders team though. these guys don't win pretty every game is probably the weirdest ugly game i've ever seen. but some how they are putting up huge numbers. like historic numbers in some of the ugliest games you have ever seen.
it's not like peyton manning going for 60 points in a game throwing 6 touchdowns. you know just driving it down the field and scoring at will. it's not like that at all. it's grind it out not making bad plays but not looking real pretty at it either. it's an awkward herky jerky movement that is somehow strangling the life out of it's opponents like a constricting snake.
a true team effort in each bout though. not the defense does this, the special teams does that, the offense is on this. nah one struggles the other guys pick it up and when they struggle the other ones are there to snatch up the slack. i just like how they look going in to this.
they really have the lights shining on them now. everyone is paying attention all football fans and analysts alike. they have all noticed the rising stars and nobodies on this oakland raiders silver and black attack. these kids are young, they are fast probably the fastest, and they have some key figures in the leadership roles. man they can do it.
today i don't even know whos going to step up and be the man. thats the kind of year its been. darren mcfadden really has been the man this year though. i'd like to see him gash some red shirts today. hit em in the mouth. i want to see richard seymour have his defining game today i want to see him play havok on that #1 ranked chiefs rushing attack.
the raiders defensive line has to smash them in the mouth. beat them up throw elbows body slam do whatever you have to do. do not let these kids get a crease don't let them run.
i was almost going to say i'm bored with life but i'm not. i'm just bored with the bickering fussing and fighting.
it isn't that hard to smile. it isn't that hard to say what you mean. it isn't that hard to sing. it isn't that hard.
just do you fuck man everything else is like a big black cloud that follows you around. if you can't be you then what the fuck is the point.
live life man what the fuck the rest is a waste of time. drink a beer, eat some drugs, snort some coke, drink a bottle of water, eat a steak, laugh, look at the stars, swim in the water, stop and smell the god damn roses, play your music, dance at all times, hug it out, who cares as long as it feels good.
you aren't promised tomorrow and you are only guaranteed one thing in life and it's death. why slave around for things just to prolong your days? man if you're afraid to die you aren't living. so fuck it do what u want. u hate it i love it suck it it's whatever.
idk why i just feel like crawling out of my skin right now. chasing a high, chasing money, trying to keep families together. nobody has their shit together. i'm not even upset i just don't understand how people can't be comfortable with themselves. it's always a fake fucking front trying to be more than you are.
how hard is it to kick back, turn on some tunes and just relax? life is too god damn hard to be always upset or angry and spiteful. just enjoy yourself and everything comes to you. it's easy just let it go.
how do you get that to those who are wrapped up in the fucking materialistic worthless things around them? theres always an underlying motive for something more. it's fucking fake and some would say it's human nature. i just want to eat, sing, love, and live. it isn't that complicated.
it's just tiring day after day someone else falls under the surface. another one who couldn't keep their head above water. got lost in the woods and they just blew away like an early morning fog. whos to say they should have done this or they should have done that? were all stuck in the same predicament. you could be next. so why waste today?
a lot of young people might not have experienced this throughout their entire life thus far. a lot of people may never experience it ever. it's a little thing i like to call freedom.
i've some how wiggled myself into a completely boundary free environment. i wake up every day with absolutely zero responsibility. there are zero things that HAVE to be done. i mean we all pay bills and pay a mental price to keep people around us in a favorable mood. however i don't feel emotionally connected to either as a necessity that i must do. because if i don't feel like it i'll just tell both to get fucked.
fortunately for myself the easy going charmed one that i am, i don't usually ever have to do that.
but this has got to be the most awkward feeling ever. i sleep for however long i want. i live a drug riddled, alcoholic, debauchery filled lifestyle. it's completely awesome yet unfulfilling in the same way. it's almost a feeling of complete indifference yet being excited at the same time.
i've been snorting cocaine, drinking booze, and eating like a king for the last week or so and it's finally hit me. i literally don't know what is going to happen 5 minutes from now let alone 10 years or even 50 years from now. i honestly don't think i even care.
one thing i do know is i have completely enjoyed myself and everyone i've been around for as long as i can remember. i am going to guarantee myself right now that i'll make sure it never stops.
life is good. i can't wait for tomorrow. can't stop wont stop. i'm winning anyway, i'm winning any motha fuckin' way. i love you lets party!!!!!!!!! OH YEAH! CHAMPAGNE YEAH!
Thanks to my trusty host over @ phatservers that say they keep daily backups but apparently they don't. so somehow they corrupted all my most recently updated db's and essentially put me 3 months behind on any work i've done. lost many days worth of work and well fuck you.
however i'm watching pulp fiction right now and it makes me happy.
ENGLISH MOTHER FUCKER DO YOU SPEAK IT?
but all is good i've been out of town or gone doing massive amounts of drugs and alcohol consumption. enjoying the summer and even copped a tan. you know how we do.
its been like 20 something days i think now of alcohol consumption and pill popping greatness. it finally commenced into a bastard of a hangover and a bit of vomit monday morning about 30 minutes before i had to be at work.
i of course fought off the hellish hangover with a few grunts and a steady dose of opiates in the form of a synthetic pill(s). It had been a disastrous weekend and was now spilling into the work week where I'm supposed to be somewhat coherent.
Needless to say when I got home from work monday I took it easy and ate a few more goodies that i like to call vikings aka more opiates. In general I was just trying to get some sleep. Hoping Tuesday would bring a brighter future if only for a few hours at a time. "Hope" as turns out is a very dangerous thought process.
So the following morning I finally drag my half dead ass out of bed after hitting the snooze button 12 times. Hop in the shower give myself a quick rinse, surprisingly actually put some gel in my hair, grab my shit, and hop in the truck.
Already running 10 minutes late I do what any reasonable person would do... Drive like a fucking maniac all the way to work. Breaking every traffic law in the book. Crossing double yellows, passing 3 semi's at a time, doing 100mph into oncoming traffic. All the while singing along to some jimi hendrix playing on the stereo. You know, the norm.
Finally show up to work completely sober for the first time in weeks, 5 minutes late as usual. Typical for a guy trying to get fired, but thats a story for another day.
It turns out to be a pretty uneventful stress filled day with mountains of paper work that I have to dig myself out of daily. Eventually 4:30 rolls around. So I drag my leather ass home via 90 mph in the silverado while I nod off from complete mental exhaustion. All in a days work.
Only to come home to news of my dads cancer surgery. You guessed it, unsuccessful. He has already left amid the bad news to the mountains to try and clear his head with some 357 gun fire. So I'm left alone stewing on all of this. Pretty helpless at the moment with nothing but a truck and a pocket full of money.
After a few decisive beers flow down my esophagus I'm feeling randy. So I hop in the truck, drunk driving in my glass house, and let the tires spin all the way down the road on the way to the liquor store. Blowing through stop signs with zero regard for pedestrians. Last of my worries is a simple DUI Manslaughter at this point.
Once I reach the terrorist liquor store I immediately grab 3 sticks of teriyaki beef jerky and an ice cold box of Pacifico. Two of the handful of things in life I genuinely enjoy. Roll myself home and turn up the tunes. Because of course when all else fails get yourself some beer, music, and beef jerky.
So after an entertaining night of alcohol consumption and loud music I jump in the sack and dream about the lighter things in life.
And the cycle starts all over again. Green vile flying from the same throat I so graciously sent all those beers down with. Spreading across the bathroom floor and toilet seat at high velocity. Only to wipe it up, brush it off, and smile at myself in the mirror muttering under my breath how sick of a human being I really am.
The daily life of the dynastoned. Isn't as gracious as it may appear, but I'm still here!
I added a links area with links and descriptions of each link in the cool shit section. There is also a project section which includes all the upcoming projects I am working on with updates. The last but not least section of the site I added is the archives section. Which includes every post I have ever made on this site from the beginning of time until today.
The final and most important SEO feature I added to my glorious and beautiful site is the Tags (Gats) section. It's where I gat all sites with a few keywords. It took me forever to implement into my mysql db and build the right code in php to actually run the script to find things by keyword in the db and format it into the proper links.
Anyway, I would like you to suck it and recognize greatness when you see it. This site has been fully SEO optimized and will be pulling traffic shortly. :D
Thats right suck it you fucking cunt. All I do is drink beer and bitch about work. I need to smoke weed everyday but I don't always get around to it. Either way you can suck it nigger.
On a lighter note nignogs make me sick. Chinese people with their ching chang chong talk need to go back to their country we don't understand them. Also wide nosed breathin' all the white mans air niggers should rot in hell.
