a lot of young people might not have experienced this throughout their entire life thus far. a lot of people may never experience it ever. it's a little thing i like to call freedom.
i've some how wiggled myself into a completely boundary free environment. i wake up every day with absolutely zero responsibility. there are zero things that HAVE to be done. i mean we all pay bills and pay a mental price to keep people around us in a favorable mood. however i don't feel emotionally connected to either as a necessity that i must do. because if i don't feel like it i'll just tell both to get fucked.
fortunately for myself the easy going charmed one that i am, i don't usually ever have to do that.
but this has got to be the most awkward feeling ever. i sleep for however long i want. i live a drug riddled, alcoholic, debauchery filled lifestyle. it's completely awesome yet unfulfilling in the same way. it's almost a feeling of complete indifference yet being excited at the same time.
i've been snorting cocaine, drinking booze, and eating like a king for the last week or so and it's finally hit me. i literally don't know what is going to happen 5 minutes from now let alone 10 years or even 50 years from now. i honestly don't think i even care.
one thing i do know is i have completely enjoyed myself and everyone i've been around for as long as i can remember. i am going to guarantee myself right now that i'll make sure it never stops.
life is good. i can't wait for tomorrow. can't stop wont stop. i'm winning anyway, i'm winning any motha fuckin' way. i love you lets party!!!!!!!!! OH YEAH! CHAMPAGNE YEAH!
